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So I was watching a video about productivity, and one thing I am missing above all else is focus. I’ve made more progress on a project of mine last week, than I did in a month. And I’ve made very little progress this week?
Why? Because I have not been focusing, I have been trying to approach other aspects of it I am simple not equipped to deal with. But as I said, to be a jack. So I’ll refocus next week, but tomorrow, I ‘ll try something that is new to me. And you’ll see my attempt at an art by the end of this week.

Today’s color is #ada258

Lemna:

I have nothing to say to him until he cleans his room.

And I have nothing to say because I’m taking a break. See you later.

I don’t like the idea of taking a break, it stresses me out to not be putting something out daily, and I’m really hesitant to start witting the story that’s been taking form in my mind over the last few weeks. Especially since it seems to not be going anywhere.

For inspiration tomorrow I shall read three Shell Silverstien books to see his style, and because we have a few lying around.

But I don’t this post right now, and since I’m taking a break I don’t have to. I wish you a good and productive week.

Shabbat was outed than I expected it to be, but I knew that in advance, I made a promise I knew I wouldn’t be able to keep and I’m sorry. At least not with the graphic I had wanted to make. But really I had the time if I had spent them really really well.

And there is no color today I don’t deserve it.

I am currently in possibly the most comfortable positions to rest in, other than lying down, but since I feel somewhat sick I think I would rather be uncomfortable, so I’m Leaning over to write this. But no, I like my empty comforts, and it’s a positive feeling. Powerful enough to somewhat overcome boredom. But a lot of things are, at least in theory. I am unwilling to endure some forms of discomfort to become bored, and I am willing to endure discomfort to push off boredom. But when don’t I? It’s not consistent.

Whatever I don’t care right now, and I have a whole lot of cleaning I want to do tomorrow. So since I already lost my consistency with this blog missing a day losing some time, losing focus and attention, I’ll take a break. I’ll at the very least write something like this every day, but the pre-post is either stalling or becoming the entirety of my posting for that day. I shall come back refreshed next Wednesday.

Not much, I didn’t get any critical feedback.

Gotta get back to cleaning see you next week.

by

A little day by Ilan Meir Herz.

It was a little day and I was little. Not just in stature, but in body in mind.
many opportunities had passed by me. And I had opportunities I just let be. Yet by my thoughts, I thought I grew, yet still, my actions were nothing new. But I learned I would not get far by fear and worked to overcome it. At least while I wasn’t afraid. And by the time I got to try to write a poem using the word by I had no clue what to do and moved son to the next word. From.

from

I’ve reached far from where I’ve started.
But to travel farther I need not just a destination but…

This isn’t working I’ll try it at a later date, I just don’t have the headspace for it. I’m working on something else and don’t really have the time to write something thought out.
So what about something that isn’t really thought out? At least not in advance?
I’ll try that.

Every Word:

Every word is made of letters.
Every word communicates something, or at the very least should. If your using words and they aren’t communicating anything, you are using them wrong. You can use multiple words to communicate the same thing, but for most of them, there is additional information being communicated regarding why you’re using that particular word. Even a word used to fill space communicates something, and my problem with them is when they are obstructing or confusing the idea that you intended to communicate.

Like communicates doubt or uncertainty even when uncertainty isn’t there. There are uses for like that don’t communicate doubt or uncertainty, but that’s like, annoying. And the reason it annoys me is that it slows down communication, and even if it’s just replacing silence, I have to put in a bit of mental effort to filter it out.
To me, it seems that that use of like is a sort of in-group test. People like me use like like me. It’s belonging to a click or speaking like people you admire.

And here, using the word like just helped me be more concise, and I wish to continue using it this way. But I feel any fears I have of the space holder usage wiping out this usage are completely invalid. Many words have multiple uses, and I don’t think that these uses will detract from each other too much.
Though I believe that some uses of like are going to become outdated, I don’t think the “proper” usage of it, at least the one I think to be proper, will be one of them.

Today’s color is #5cce86

On a personal note, the card game I’ve been working on recently actually looks to have potential. It’s fun to play, there’s a lot of room for future cards, it won’t too hard to program into a digital game compared to other games. I’ve begun to construct a style and appearance for the game beyond the base mechanics and it will look sick… All that’s good stuff. And it even gives me a good story to start writing and actually publish without having too many confidence issues. Because the story being communicated to the degree at which I imagine it is less of a worry if the purpose of the story is to make a game feel real. And to further flesh out its setting. And to get used to publishing stories. And to better accept and integrate criticism… Goshdarnit, it’s an excuse to post what I write.

Lemna Speaks:

I was going to say I’m happy for you. But I’m annoyed that you almost forgot to let me sleep, so in all honesty I’m slightly disappointed. Great and Terrible things are happening all over the world. So what if there are always great and terrible things, don’t you want to make the world better?
What you want to make yourself better first and part of that is completing a project and being willing to put more of your stuff out there? I get that, I’m just sad it’s taking you so long.

Every Word A Poem (Except this):

but

But what of this but what of that.
Don’t forget to feed the cat.
But not too much or not too fast,
The cat’s unhealthy and way too fat.

But it’s lazy for me to rhyme cat with fat so I shall try once more.

But to write something better than cat,
But I shouldn’t of said it and so this is not that.

But one hours pretty long, but I want to write a song,
But just one hours not enough,
so for now I’ll shut this off.

But I can’t end with just that, I’d rather just eat a cat.
(But they aren’t kosher it’s against my religion but…
While I could continue this indefinitely his time is worthwhile and I would rather preserve his attention for the next one.)

his

His but not hers, yet he is hers.
And he is not her, but she is his.
And with his love and his money great things will happen.

I won’t say I don’t have the headspace for this, and it is quite late. But the truth is I’m just done for today. So, see you tomorrow morning.

Today’s color is #394c6b.
There won’t be a texture today as it’s Purim and I’m doing celebratory stuff in addition to my weekend cleaning. But tomorrow after Shabbat is out I’ll have a contrast instead of a texture using both today’s color and tomorrow’s.

And I know the color is celebratory, but the celebration gets all the color, and the day gets what remains.

And I’d ask thee these questions three if I but knew just who were thee.
(But since I know not who you are I present more than questions four.)
–
Why do you do what you do when you do it?
Why do it if you do what you do?
If you do what you do what gives cause for to do it.
What cause do you have to do what you do?
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What do you think is the greatest value a person can devote their life to? What other values are important? How much more important is your most important value? What would you be willing to sacrifice to elevate your values further?
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What is your most interesting habit? What things do you do on a daily basis that you feel add the most value, or emotional value to your life?
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What do you often tell or point out to the people around you, and they just don’t listen or take it to heart? What are your pet peeves?
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How many close friends do you have? How many do you think is the right amount for someone to have? How many close friends do you think your closest friend has?

Lemna Speaks:

Whohoo parties. But it seems not to be it for me, I just don’t get it. I like the beat but their taste in music is deplorable. And I would celebrate but I am but a figment of mind given mind. I’d need a body first.

And in fiction any of these can be true.

1. There is something about empty space that is pushing it to remain empty, and since empty space is trying to repel matter, the only place for the matter to go is towards other matter.
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2. Small component particles create a field similar to that of a magnetic field and attract the particles of all other matter in a process similar to magnetism.
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3. There are long invisible strings of particles called long-gravitons, and they get tangled and contract around matter, entangling and connecting to other long-gravitons pulling the matter closer together.
   By this theory, anti-gravity could be particles that join into the strings extending them are particles that weekend the strings’ bonds, causing them to stretch and eventually rip.
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4. Instead of strings, there are nets of long-gravitons, and they get bonded or tangled with existing matter, causing the net-like structure to fold in on itself. (well, it’s more a cage than a net because it’s at the very least three-dimensional.)
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5. Gravity can also be a fixed cage or a more complex pattern of long-gravitons that remains in slowing and catching matter as it travels through space. (But why would it pull more matter towards itself? I’m not thinking this one through right now. these are complicated.)
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6. Gravity is actually just sound, there are great shockwaves traveling through the universe, and denser matter conducts them better. (Wait, this one makes even less sense than the previous ones. Well, I’m out of ideas. Making sense can come later.)
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7. Gravity is a flow of microparticles, I’ll call them micro-gravitons, that flow through matter, and with a form of fusion that then implodes, sending more micro-gravitons outwards. Micro-gravitons attract each other. (I really should figure out how to do more with this one.)
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8. Gravity is one of a set of mechanisms created by a god so that they wouldn’t need to micromanage the universe.
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Well, I resorted to god, I’m out of ideas. Hope you got something from it.