Pre-Post 128 – Every word I want

I can’t not make one of these it’s habit. But now that I’ve decided that I don’t have to do it I’m making it to avoid doing something else.

Today’s color is #23daeb

Just scribbles. Don’t care enough to get the color balance right now.

Free flowing.
But why do you ask?

say

Say what you want, and I’ll say this.
For what word is said that’s more common than say?
He we and them, us and then they.
Only sometimes are more common than say.

To make better mini poems of this sort, I think I’ll read some Doctor Suess books, I liked the rhythm he was able to communicate in his writing, and I find I resemble it at times. So I would like to see what he does so I can better differentiate myself.
Because he was able to communicate it well enough for children and as an adult, I am still able to appreciate it, but I want to be able to communicate it so that even more adults can appreciate what I write. And I still have 72 more words to go through for my practice.

71 I used a variation of her already… What the heck I’ll do another.

Her being her mind.
Her money her stuff.
But is it enough?

Maybe. If she is her stuff it is not enough but if she is her art…
She won’t come apart.
Unless like all people she changes.

This one feels very distant from my previous one, but I act differently when it comes to ownership words.

And she

She is she, the one for he, the one for me only if she agrees…

And I’m near the realm of ownership still so I’ll take a break and see if I have a different approach later.

Lemna Speaks:

No I don’t you speak in my name.
But if I could speak all I would say is {explative} you.

But she’s taking to me.

Weekend Post – To Not Care

Today’s color is #be1c39

To not care about the quality of my posts gives me a lot more freedom to create original and creative posts. It also gives me more opportunities to create garbage posts but with the way I’m approaching and trying to be somewhat creative daily that is inevitable. Not everything I make can be good.

But I want to care less about how it comes out so that I can be more free to simply create. Editing can come later, but I will never share my best ideas if I am hesitant. Well, I should not speak in absolutes, but I create better when I care less.

So to not care, I shall attempt to make a graphic using the last few colors I haven’t made a texture for. That will be my post-Shabbat post, and that will help me free up my mind for continued creation.

But for now a few questions.

Why do I care about how I look in this blog? I don’t have a social media presence. My parents seem to like what I create, but I resemble them, and they’d get it even if others don’t. So why do I want to look good here? Well, why does anybody?

My current answer is: something something social species something something. And that’s enough for some purposes. But i believe I can subvert my biology, so I shall do so.

Why do I not have an audience? Because what I create doesn’t stand out enough, or this website could use a lot of work I’m not putting into it.

Why do I think questions are so important? Because they make me think, they allow me to change, and they help me learn. But I’m just saying this because I need an answer. I simply believe that they are helpful and important as I was convinced of that in the past, and I have counters to any arguments that have attempted to change my mind on this subject. Unfortunately, I have not really had someone argue against me on this, so I need more experience to know if my reasons are valid.

But on a personal level, I’m curious, and questions are a way for me to explore the world. So even if they are not good or healthy, I shall continue asking them. The only reason not to for me is not to hurt others, so I shall hold myself back in those situations.

Lemna Speaks:

Well, this was okay, have a nice week and {long expletive}

Pre-Post 127

Today’s color is #aa629d

Three Questions:

How does a society’s sense of cleanliness affect longevity? Is there any way to get a semi-accurate measure of this? What subcategories of cleanliness would we discover if we tried to measure this?

Why do people stop enjoying some games when they stop being popular? Were they enjoying them in the first place? Was the social element the bragging the competitiveness the entire point? Is the game exploited to the degree when knowing the optimal strategies takes all the fun out of it?
Why does this happen?

Why does anything stop being popular if it is so great in the first place? Some things get old, but for a few months, it’s the best thing ever, then it stops being good in retrospect? I don’t think that’s the case for a lot of things. Is the enjoyment not genuine?

Lemna Speaks:

No it isn’t genuine, they’re fooling themselves because they were told one thing and they believe it. So you could say they are genuinely enjoying themselves, but in the places where the thing dies out entirety. They either tricked themselves into liking it, or they tricked themselves into liking the next thing until it is far too late.

Lines:

When there is hope it there is hope, but someone’s gotta work on finding a solution, darn-it. And I don’t always want to be the one.
Of course, when there’s too much stress. There’s a fifty percent chance of me being useless.

On Sunday, I will be back with a post, but today I clean my room for Passover. But why am I saying that here? I’m supposed to be being creative.
Not today, I’ll save being creative for my post as I’m out of time now and need to get to cleaning.

Pre-Post 126

Today’s color is #017c74

Again no texture, I’ll probably be back with these next week, but I’m getting a lot of frustration with not being able to… One second… Nope that didn’t work.

Three Questions:

What is the second most common liquid on earth? What is the third? When do we stop running into variants of molten rock and get to surface stuff?

What is the most clever thing ever said? Can we measure degrees of cleverness? Is the most clever thing ever said something I could even understand?

But could I understand the stupidest thing ever said? Does one need to be incredibly smart or incredibly dumb to understand something stupid? Ah, but I am asking a stupid question, for intelligence is but a minor factor in being able to understand others. If you don’t have anything in common or know what they are talking about, then you won’t have a clue. Maybe.

Hours ago I was asleep, and it was a nice sleep, it was quite deep.
My dreams made me feel some way. But don’t remember them today.

Lemna Speaks:

And so I do, and I have nothing to say to you…
Gahk, he infected me with that stupid rhyming scheme,
And I will stop talking before.

And she stopped herself just on time.

A Word:

I spoke he spoke but he was wrong,
There’s but one way that’s right.
And I wished him a lonely day, but joined him for the night.

We argued for a long long time and when he went to sleep.
I told him that we were not done, and left feeling complete.

And I might have more post (Yes post as in an uncountable goo, not many posts, but the amount of post, in what I write and put out.) today than yesterday, but I doubt it and I have plans for the rest of the week, so I’ll see you next Sunday.


Pre-Post 125 – Basic Lazy Me

Today’s color is #a19ee1

I feel I worked well and did good yesterday, so I don’t feel the need to put much into my pre-post today. Logically it shouldn’t matter, but there won’t be much to today’s pre-post.

And it doesn’t bode well that I didn’t know how to make the texture I wanted today. I had finally gotten the color balance done correctly, and I wasn’t able to put it into the pattern I wanted. So they’ll be no texture today. And that’s okay there was no promise for a daily texture. It’s just a habit I picked up.

Three Questions:

What was the most money ever gambled away in a game of poker? What was the least likely set of hand that was ever recorded to happen in a game of poker? What are the odds of that set of hands happening?
And for a less precise question:
What are the odds that it happened elsewhere but wasn’t recorded?

How much of the world’s food is produced by a small number of farmers? How much money do they make?

Well, I got distracted trying to answer a few things so this is it for my questions today. I’m sorry there isn’t much I’ve been quite preoccupied recently. So I’ll give Lemna a turn, and save the Every Word” For today’s post if nothing else comes up.

Lemna Speaks:

And there is no brain room for me either but I’ll try. In all honesty my life’s been going well, there haven’t been enough walks, and he does other things that bother me, but I’ve been sleeping through most of those. I’m taking things as they come, and planning my next comeback.

Pre-Post 124 – To Be a Jack

I really want to be a jack,
One who always has a nack.
To live to learn one can create,
My works and skills do oscillate.

More a communication than poetry, unless honest communication is poetry. But I like the practice, and I feel that if and when I do it correctly I’ll be communicating my thoughts and feeling much more clearly. (Though what communications and feeling can sometimes be up to debate.) And for that what matters is what is understood by those who read it. It could be that short chunks like these are easy, that there is a level of poetry that one not need be a poet to learn to create. I sure hope so.

Today’s color is #a9507d I changed it to better match the spirals that came out.

Tried 2 different things and didn’t clean it up enough. But honestly I forgot what I have to do to do so.

Three Questions:

What were those really interesting questions I thought up in the morning that would definitely have provided some great content to put here? It was really good why’d I forget it? Was it not as good as I remember it being? Did I accidentally answer it for myself? Was my answer good enough?
Nah, I think I’m just preoccupied with other things. And I distracted myself far too early in the day so it’s my fault.

But what in my life is not my fault? What is my life is not my doing? I thank my parents for the good, and their parents for passing even more good onto me. I blame myself for the bad as I was lucky enough to be born a genius and am vain enough to believe it (Lemna says I don’t really believe it, but on that, I will have to disagree with myself. She’s okay with being considered a part of myself, but only in this case I should not make a habit of it.)

What else is lost in the minds of the masses, that we forget before we get to writing it down? What is lost because those with what to share don’t share it, or when they do it does not reach others? Is there a person in the world who does not have something to add?

Tully what individual has a limit on what they could do in the world?

Lemna Speak:

So let me get a word in while he’s in lulu land. Not that he doesn’t have what to say, or that it doesn’t have merit. But how he’s saying it is making me a little sick. Just the cheesiness of some of it, or the use of cheesiness as an excuse to ignore grammar and proper communication.

Regardless I saw a really interesting human bird paragliding in a chair. Let’s hope he truly felt his freedom, trapped in the winds as he were.

(Lemna wanted to change her last statement, but I convinced her it is fine as it is. )

Pre-Post 123 – Gravity

Today’s color is #a1bc33

I tried something with the texture today. I failed.


What can I do to get the question ” what is the airspeed velocity of an unladen swallow” out of my head? Every other time I try and ask these, it pops up for me. Maybe I should be more interested in other things.
Why do planets have an oval orbit? How do they stay in orbit, or are they falling out of orbit for millions or billions of years? What in the holy name is up with gravity?

Yeah, gravity I said it. All matter in the universe applies a force that attracts all other matter in the universe towards itself, according to its distance from itself. (Why do I feel as if I worded that badly?) And why does that happen? There is no why, gravity is the why, we call it one of the four base powers, the answers to the why, the things that exist just because. But if we have an explanation for gravity, or if we ever get one, then that will need explaining. I go far enough down and it’s just because. And the gravity of that answer scares me.

Because what? Because gravity. It’s like if you weight on a piece of cloth, but then you’re using gravity to explain gravity, and while that’s fun. That is not the answer I am looking for.

For a more mystical answer:
All the universe wants to return to its original state, and matter is simply more of the universe.

Another try:
Gravity exists not because it’s actually pulling stuff towards it, but it’s slowing the rate at which space is created as much of it is created within the existing objects, and as we are existing objects, we cannot tell.
The problem with this one is light. But gravity being less space being created is an answer that interests me.
It is most likely wrong.

Now when a situation has gravity, it is large enough to pull things towards it. But what does that mean? I may never know.

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk (well, ted-ex.) And have a nice day.

Oh and since this is a pre-post Lemna gets a turn:

And the gravity of this topic is so great I have not any interest in it. The scale is too major, the focus to small. What is the point of understanding the complex center of the matter, if we cannot even understand things that exist in the same realm as we do? Birds. Flight. Questions we have partially answered, but we still cannot create and replicate, leave the great matters until we become self-sufficient. Because as you said earlier today. Great and Terrible things are happening all over the world.

Pre-Post 121

Today’s color is #b42ab2

Here is all I got. And there is nothing more I was able to do.

Three Questions + Four Creative* Lines:

What is the best way to learn how to speak a language? Is it good to practice even if you are reinforcing existing errors? Should I allow errors to be if they don’t hinder communication?

How many faces is a man allowed to have? For I can be one or put on the mask of another. But how much do I truly know? I would think not much, but the borders of my ignorance stretch far enough that I could explain that there is a place you have not looked, and you, with your better knowledge, can explore or uncover any potential points of error. If this is true of me, and not just the character I am playing, then I should be a teacher or a coach. Some sort of guide that enables others to better accomplish their goals.
But I must not let that stop me from learning more. I must expand my ignorance further.

So why can we not get an actual measure of how long it will take? Well, I would argue with enough work, we can get a pretty good approximation. But if that is the case, why don’t we? Because we would not start something if it took 10 years instead of two, or 2 years instead of a few months, but we still want to be at that place in 10 years from now. (But maybe this just applies to me.)

So why am I so into the self-help crap? Why do I feel I have the answers? Well, because I have the answers that will work for me, but people are complicated, and I can’t take all of that into account. So I believe I can help others like me, and if you are not like me, and I want to help as many as I can. I want to be a good person, and good people care.

Lemna Speaks:

“I want to be a good person. And good people care.”
Wow, thank you for leaving me with so much to work with, not like you could handle having another person in your head who has Different morals from you. No, I have to be like you, somewhat, give me a few days to differentiate myself then I’ll see.

Pre-Post 120

Today’s color is #72a7d8

The color moved away a bit, and messed up my changes, but here it is anyway. If it’s even visible.

You know what forget what I said yesterday I’ll just do book ideas of some sort. The need to have the questions lead into something is causing me far too much hesitancy. I’ll let it happen naturally.

Questions:

What is the least amount of ambient light it would take for the median individual to identify others by looking at their faces? What is the most amount of ambient light we can get before it becomes blinding? Can we measure either of these without causing people permanent eye damage?
(Why do I feel so stupid for asking that questions? I’ve asked others like it)

Let’s do it quickly, I said, let’s not make a big thing out of it. Now I’m sitting here over 2 hours later, not knowing what to put here. So {explative} it, I’ll finish the pre-post and ger on with my day. So…

What constitutes a salad? Are there categories of saladness? Is potato salad a salad? What spreads are also salads?

What events throughout history would we consider the end of the world had they happened today?
I have nothing more to say.

Lamna rages. Then Lemna sleeps, or at least she’s trying to. She is upset, and I don’t know how to do about it.

Have a nice day.

Pre-Post 119 – A Not Too Different Approach

Improve, adapt, overcome, and all that but first I’ll still make a texture.

Today’s color is #71c237

Today’s was a lazy one because mostly just manipulated existing tools. And I didn’t put in the effort after that.

So for today, I will be a bit more directed in my asking of questions, I shall land on a topic, have Lemna speak about it a bit, then make that the topic of the day’s later post.

“If you could change anything, what would you change?” interests me. Not because of people’s answers, because the answers I get are far less interesting and far more predictable than most would expect. But that’s probably my fault for the context in which I ask it.
But what is interesting is that sometimes I need to specify what can be changed because people are limiting themselves to what they think is feasible. Sometimes people want to change things for one reason, not realizing that life is Complicated. So here’s is my focus for today, now for the pre-questions.

Can we measure how easily we can make certain types of changes in the world? Can I create a measure for how likely it is to turn out well? Well, probably not if I take that wording.
So, can I create a consistent measure that tells you how many unforeseen or not yet considered variables there are, and how much of an effect external variables can have? Can I just take examples of projects that have failed in the real world, and try to find all the variables that went into it? Can I just say if your working in this field it is likely that there are x many variables that aren’t within your field or focus?
Fudge asking if I can come up with this, I can’t do this alone, but is it feasible?
Well, I’d have to find out.

And he thinks he’s so clever with how he ended that. But he’s probably not ever going to do anything about it, in fact, I bet he’ll forget about it in less then a month, and only remember when he re-reads his blog. Which he doesn’t do often I may add. But this isn’t about him right now, this is about me and a chance for me to be me.

So on the topic of unforeseen consequences. They exist, and knowing where others have failed before you is great, but people will not consider that it will be that bad, that they will fail, because they don’t even know that there is something that they will need to solve, so ask yourself, why haven’t others done this before me. And if you don’t know, try and see why that is.

So yeah, those are Lemna’s two cents, or maybe they are just mine. I’ll try to continue with this topic in my later post today so see you then.